The start of a new year, many hopes and promises as we start with a blank slate. This year (like every other year) I will attempt to be a better person... by better I mean lighter, prettier, more patient with less attitude. or something like that.
This year, I do intend to keep one promise I made at the end of last year, which is to raise my daughter with a Christian upbringing... which means I need to take my 15 pound overweight butt back to church, and really dig deep to connect with my spiritual side. I have been spiritually dead for years now... I don't even know what it truly feels like being a Christian anymore... I need an awakening, and I intend to do it before I have to figure things out the hard way.
These days there's barely any time for anything. My 8 month old now has a mind of her own, and she follows me around in her walker screaming high pitched shrieks at the top of her lungs... she finally stop as I reach down to pick her up, but then decides she doesn't want that either. All day I am at her mercy... I eat when she lets me, sleep when she says I can and even shower at her discrepancy. I am a slave to my master...
The past 2 months we spent flying around the continental US. My little Yena is a traveling guru. She has been to 3 countries and 4 states in the past 8 months. I am pretty sure she'll think that flying is a normal mode of transportation. In the past 2 months, sleeping schedules have been completely thrown off. It has been months since I've slept through the night. I know that I"m supposed to let her cry it out, but I can't stand listening to her cries. 15 minutes and I'm done!! So, I'm up almost every hour of the night, tending to my masters needs. *sigh*
I can't believe it's been a year already since we arrived in Korea, and started this journey~~
I'm beginning to feel like this is home... Although Korea and I have a love hate relationship, I'm actually really going to miss this place when I leave... well, at least the food. In Korea, you can get just about anything delivered to you... Thank God for delivery otherwise my family would have starved during my many lazy days of boycotting the kitchen.
It's getting late, and I know the little one will summon me soon. Hopefully I'll be back with another update soon.
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